Semalam, 23 November 2018, Hari Jumat, aku membulatkan niat untuk ngonser Elephant Kind di PKKH. Awalnya ragu, karena baru sebulan yang lalu nonton mereka. Namun, karena EK cukup jarang main di Jogja, yah, kapan lagi. Akhirnya berangkatlah setelah kelar urusan kampus lepas maghrib, menyempatkan numpang mandi di kos ijah sekaligus titip tas segede gaban. Lalu berangkat ke PKKH untuk ngegig dengan pakaian dinas ke kampus seharian ini: flat shoes hitam, celana kain hitam, blus hitam, dan kerudung coklat. Hanya berganti tas kecil motif etnik.
Aku datang tanpa ekspektasi apapun. Kecuali yakin bahwa seperti biasa, aku
pasti bisa dapat spot yang ciamik di depan pangung persis ehehehe. Dan
keyakinan itu semakin besar ketika masuk ke PKKH masih sepi banget, nyet.
Baru kali ini sepertinya bisa menikmati band-band pembuka yang antah
berantah. Mungkin karena mereka membawakan lagu populer kesukaanku, seperti Coldplay, dan musikalitas mereka lumayan bagus. Kualitas sound juga cukup
jernih. Lalu menonton Grrrrl Gang, yang ternyata cukup menyenangkan secara
musiknya walau entah dengan liriknya apakah cocok dengan ku tidak. Menarik,
tapi tidak jadi favorit.
Dan akhirnya, Elephant Kind! Menghentak, melebihi biasanya. The kind of
melody that makes you enjoy your self! Seperti memecahkan geronjal energi yang
selama ini membatu. Tubuh ini rasanya begitu cair. Bebas lepas itu yang
kurasakan.
Yang menyenangkan adalah aku menangkap Bam Mastro was in a really good
mood! He smiled a lot. He talked more than before. He enjoyed the stage. And I
smiled. I smiled a lot for being happy of his happpiness. So I danced with my happy
heart and happy feet.
I screamed when they, unexpectedly, played Downhill. It always be one of
my favourite. I really love the lyric because it really boost me. It gives me
space to being so in love with my self, to fight for my own.
Wait a minute, stop!
Doesn’t feel quite right
I took my gun, fight
Kill them all tonight
My quality export
I don’t understand why we are fucking
import
I feel overqualified
Kill them all tonight
I made a video for this part, and when I replayed it: Oh God, my voice is
unbearable wkwkwk. Therefore, I only upload the first 10 seconds of this song in
social media mehehe.
I do believe in God
Don’t get me wrong, alright
I don’t like the world but I plan to
live
And I don’t care as much as I used to be
Holyshit. This is my favourite. It seems like I sang this with all of my
body and soul. It is releasing!
Nah, from this moment I don’t know what happened, but, I was repeatedly
felt the warmth in my heart. It felt like I had a connection with something
deep down in my heart. I started to enjoy the music more, I focused on my self,
sometimes I closed my eyes because it made me feel more. Deeper. Sometimes I
looked up, imagined the sky above, believing there is something higher than
anything, but in the same time, really deep inside my self.
Then the moment has arrived. EK played
With Grace.
With grace,
I live I found
You’re all I need and want
I started to refer you as God. God is
all I need and want. I felt so secure. With my eyes closed, I almost cried.
And then, Montage. Bam said something about believing the devine and
humanity. It was not the thought-provoking ones. But I stared at him, in awe.
In the same time, I was being thankful because he creates Montage and all these
beautiful songs. Then I started to
wonder how is his personal journey.
I wanna celebrate moment (YES!)
Cause this one too, this one will pass (Alright)
I am in a roller coaster
Rolling deep, rolling deeper
I realized that live in the moment is a form of our gratitude of this
life. So, yeah, I also wanna celebrate this moment by going deeper. Even though
this one too will pass.
Oh
Lord, I am alive. I feel so alive. I am alive!!!
Again, the sense of connection of my self with something bigger inside and
outside my self hitted me. “This is the moment!”.
The moment I surprised with joy.
I closed my eyes a lot. I looked up
a lot. I sang with a scream in my heart,
how wonderful this moment is.
But if you found me
This time I promise
I’ll be much better
And I feel so alive
Oh Lord I am alive
I opened my eyes, and there he was, Bam Mastro, standing in front of me,
with a big smile. I had an eye contact for a while. There is no excitement or
butterflies in my tummy that usually happened when I am fangirling. But I was
being really thankful. Thank you for creating Montage. Thank you for the
moment. Thank you. Thank you.
I was surprised, with joy, with
serenity, with gratitude.
Also, thanks for my self for making a great decision to come to this
beautiful concert.
Mengutip Jason Ranti, karena Gusti tinggal di hati. Gig ini sekali lagi
membuktikan bahwa perjalanan spirituil tak hanya di kuil.
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